What Happened...??

Hello all, it has definately been a very long time since I have posted a new entry. I was inspired to write by my good friend Monica...I just read one of her entrys, I am feeling all emotional and descided I needed to update you all on what is going on in my Petal Plucked world. For starters...I am supposed to be in Boston Mass Right now, preparing myself to be inducted in AIFD....Obviously that isn't going to happen! Life just isn't fair...I could cry about it, but whats the use.

Over the past 6 months I have endured way more then I wanted to go through, but I am still standing and I can say that God brought be through it all, when I had not the strength to even cry anymore he blessed me with the strength to keep on going. Money has been a huge issue for me, hense the reason why I am not in Boston... :-( such is life.... But There is always next year.....I hope! I just don't know how some of these people can afford to do all these extra things, I work my guts out everyday and I can barely take care of my bills sometimes...I'd like to say maybe they are making more money then I...but truth be known thats not neccessarily true...I am not gonna whine, piss or moan..it just makes me wonder sometimes...am I doing what I do in vain...am I ever going to get where I want to be in this industry? I see so many people handed opportunities and I have worked very very hard for what little I have... Just looking for that breakthrough....