It has been a while

Hello world!

It has been a long while I have been neglecting my Blog horribly. I apologize, not that I ever had anything wonderful or great to say! lol But I am still apologetic. I really dont have much to put here today, not a lot has changed in my world. I am still working at Kent's It has been a very difficult summer, Money has definately been an issue and we hanve not had very good business, but we are very hopeful that things are turning around. I am still half heartedly soul searching and trying to figure out if I want to move in a year or where I want to move. My only hang up is having a job. I can not up and move to a new place without having something stable set up. I need more connections! I need to know more people! So if anyone knows of any cool opportunities in the Floral World please let me know because I really want to broaden my Floral spectrum and get out of Small Mind America! and get into some bigger stuff!

Other then that Life is great and I am doing well! I have been working out like a mad man, and trying to get myself into shape! Pray for me! some days its a struggle!

I hope all is well with everyone! you have my love, prayers and Blessing!

-Jeremy

What Happened...??

Hello all, it has definately been a very long time since I have posted a new entry. I was inspired to write by my good friend Monica...I just read one of her entrys, I am feeling all emotional and descided I needed to update you all on what is going on in my Petal Plucked world. For starters...I am supposed to be in Boston Mass Right now, preparing myself to be inducted in AIFD....Obviously that isn't going to happen! Life just isn't fair...I could cry about it, but whats the use.

Over the past 6 months I have endured way more then I wanted to go through, but I am still standing and I can say that God brought be through it all, when I had not the strength to even cry anymore he blessed me with the strength to keep on going. Money has been a huge issue for me, hense the reason why I am not in Boston... :-( such is life.... But There is always next year.....I hope! I just don't know how some of these people can afford to do all these extra things, I work my guts out everyday and I can barely take care of my bills sometimes...I'd like to say maybe they are making more money then I...but truth be known thats not neccessarily true...I am not gonna whine, piss or moan..it just makes me wonder sometimes...am I doing what I do in vain...am I ever going to get where I want to be in this industry? I see so many people handed opportunities and I have worked very very hard for what little I have... Just looking for that breakthrough....

its been a while

Hello all! it has been a loooong time. I have neglected my blog....I am sorry. But not much to write about. my life is just as crazy as it was the last time I updated. I will post more, once I get moved and settled in. I do have things I can talk about and share, but time is a commodity that I don't have a lot of right now! take care and talk to u soon!

a lot has changed

Hello all...first of all! sorry it has taken me so long to post...It has been forever. I haven't forgotten about you, I've just been very busy.

I have dealt with a lot of trials the past month. Car issues, Financial issue and relationship issues. I am currently a very single man and...I wouldn't say loving it...but getting very used to it again! for the past 3 years I shared my life with another person and it's going to take some serious getting used to. Because although I have been single before..I have never been this alone, I lived at home during the times before.. But this too shall pass

I'm still searching for that awesome window of opportunity to take me away from mediocrity! and now I have even more drive to do so! but until then, I am taking some great advise I got from a great friend..and I am making the most out of what I have! so until then.....

My Idol!!

I have been following this man since I began in the idustry. He is amazing and I hope to work with him someday!! Preston Bailey is AMAZING...Check him out.
http://www.prestonbailey.com/PORT-artistry.htm

My Passion

My passion for this industry started over 15 years ago. And it was when I worked with my first flower that I knew that I wanted to be apart of this industry in every way possible. That passion hasn't gone away one bit, if anything it has increased. I see where I can be and what I could be doing and that frustrates me. But I was told by a good friend...(SHOUT OUT TO NAT NAT!) that I can only get out of my job what I put into it, and that I need to work with what I got! and I Am reminded that I have a lot more then some people and I need to be thankful for what I have...but I will never loose sight of my dreams and I will never stop striving for better.

Today was a very trying day at work. I am very passionate about my job, not just what I do, but the company as a whole. Because we are a small company when times are slow everyone feels the crunch, and when times are tight we all band together and work through it. But today It was revealed to me that we didn't have a team player on board, and that really made me mad. People would ask why? and I have the answer. I have been with Kent for 8 years and what effects the store effects me; and I take things personally, and I feel that, that store is as much mine(Lora, Laura, and Phylis) as it is his. And if there is no Kent's then that means there is no job for Jeremy. So during times of financial strain we bind together and we do what we can, we watch what we spend out of the company account, we watch our hours. If it is dead slow we will all volunteer and go home. Because we only have he health of the company in our best interests. We all need the money but if there is no money to be had then we are all S.O.L!! So when I approached a fellow employee, and mentioned to this person that if it stayed slow that they could go home. This person goes behind my back and talks to another employee and tells them that they are not leaving because they need the money. OK! for one...Kent is gone for the week so when he is gone, either I or Lora have authority! so do not Undermine me! and secondly! thanks you for showing your true colors! When I am loyal I am loyal, and I will have your back 200% and when I've invested so much time and energy into something I take it personally. And I took this very personal.

Tomorrow I am going to go in with a positive attitude and do my job the way that I know and I will let God reveal all the things that I have seen. And I don't have to do a thing! just sit back and wait. Like my late grandmother used to tell me all the time "Son, you have to just call on the lord and wait on time" and that what I am going to try and do from now on. I might get discouraged, but God has a bigger plan for me. A plan even bigger then I can imagine! so for now....

Really?

I am sitting here on my sofa wondering what I could be doing right now. I could totally be working on some of my projects that I have to do but I am totally not motivated. I have a couple wedding bids that need to be planned and typed...but yet again, not motivated. I have been doing a lot of soul searching lately, wondering what I want to do with my life. I have applied for numerous jobs nationwide and I have to say that I am getting very discouraged. But I have to tell myself that I am talented and that the right opportunity will come along. I have to wonder though...Am I good enough for the jobs that I'm applying for? or is the timing wrong? Or is God trying to tell me something?

I couldn't imagine that God wants me to stay here where I am not happy, and not living up to my potential. My talents aren't being utilized to their fullest here where I am, and I know that I would be much happier in a larger city, where I can make more money and do what I really love to do; DESIGN! I feel like my day is filled copying a picture or making things that I really wouldn't put my name behind if I were the owner of the store. I understand that even in a larger city, I may not be doing million dollar arrangements, but my talents and skills would be utilized and appreciated.

I also feel that my growth is being stunted a lot in my current position, for example; just the other day a woman called the shop and ordered an unusual and unique arrangement, I did something very cool, yes! it was off the wall, but it was very unique and outside of the box. The woman received it, called and complained....She brought it back in, said that it was ugly and that she felt like it wasn't a "bouquet". My boss proceeded to tell her that this is the look that we do at the shop, and she said she would prefer an arrangement in a vase....or get this....A MUM plant!!! Really??? lady, a mum plant? that's different an unusual? give me a break! so yea...I need to be in a place where the general public doesn't consider a mum plant as being different!

And please don't get me wrong, I am not bashing Kent's or Columbia. I love my job, and I love my hometown. Kent has been so good to me and he is an amazing boss. I love him like my own family. And everything that I know is here in Columbia, my family, my friends and my home. But there is a whole world out there that I have yet to see. I have never been one to accept mediocrity, and I don't intend to start. My issues aren't my boss or where I work, my issues are with the amount of money that I am not making, and the people that call themselves our customers.

so...yea....REALLY??